Ever have those times where one minute you're up, next your down, and then you're being thrown for a loop? Sometimes it's just for one day, sometimes it lasts longer. It's like actually being on a roller coaster you have no control over. No brakes and you're lucky if you have a seat belt or a bar to hold on to.
There are just times where things can be going great. Everything is falling into place the way you want it to. Then when it's all finished, here comes the ride you didn't expect. You wonder what is going to go wrong. You wonder if you made the right choices. Did you go down the road you are supposed to be traveling on? Or did you make some rash decision without fully looking at all the outcomes and screw it up? This may be the roller coaster you've experienced or it might be something like it.
Now to stop the insanity! You could try talking to a professional person about this matter. Some talk to close friends and others keep a diary. Nowadays, you could even search forums or write blogs about it. This is a good route if you want animosity. Talking to your friends can be helpful just to get the burden off. What are you really looking for though? Just to get the thoughts said out loud or do you want some kind of answer? I choose to talk to friends or somebody who has actually been through the same kind of feelings. Then it becomes a question/answer session or a debate back and forth. You come across more opinions or answers when the discussion is interactive. Do not accept the first answer you get unless it truly fits.
The last time I had the “emotional rollercoaster” was just a month ago. I had just bought a house. I went to my “favorite crazy aunt” (we adopted each other) and explained to her what was going on. I told her I was happy, but there was still the feeling like I was going to fail somehow. She told me it was because I finally had all my dreams lined up. It looked perfect. I had a good job, first house, married longer than most my friends or family, two healthy children, and was in college. Seems great, right? The thoughts that went through my head were driving me crazy. She said I had become officially “bored”. Everything checked off the list, now what do I do? I have no other big accomplishments that can be checked off right away. It's now a waiting game. Now the mind conjures up what could go wrong. Now it's the checklist to make sure nothing happens to jeopardize the happiness, the dreams I've accomplished. It's a madhouse. Shortly after talking to her and realizing that idea was a very big possibility, I became calmer. Having somebody to talk to that could look at it from a different prospective that they have been through was just what I needed. I've talked to my friends and even my grandmother about the feelings. Nothing accomplished there. They listened, but I needed answers. I needed somebody to build a brake for my roller coaster. I needed off of it as quickly as possible.
Next time you experience the “emotional rollercoaster” go grab somebody you know truly will listen. Find that special someone who will come up with different reasons, logical of course, why you're experiencing what you're going through. Also helps if that person has known what you have been going through before you involuntarily stepped onto the rollercoaster. Good luck to all and have a safe ride!
