My Life No Longer Resembles Me

Happiness can easily be taken away from you in a blink of an eye, and you don't even have a say or a chance to control to your fate. It's a painful experience because you will go on to learn that half of yourself have died.

I was planned to get married this coming December however all of the plans and dreams had gone to blank like a bubble that was pinned and burst. Like the lights had been switched off in my life and it felt so lost in my life especially like last September.

I lost someone, in a mysterious way for I gone to loose him without rhyme and reason. The communication died out with a very unusual way. I don't even know if his alive or not because I tried to use all of my resources yet nothing became fruitful up to now. No replies…No ringing of the phone…Nothing at all.

There wasn't a day, up to now, that I cried my heart out for the slice of heaven that I thought would last me a lifetime had been taken away from me. I cried my heart out to the Lord yet I never received my miracle that my fiancé would return back to me.

Depression had swallowed me whole… I prayed in every evening that I would wake up from the nightmare, while in every morning hoped that I could survive the day's lost cause for living. What makes you genuinely smile? I don't have any reason anymore to smile…even if I laugh it doesn't mean that I'm happy, it's just a fake laugh that doesn't mean anything… passiveness..

My life no longer resembles me…no more of the very creative, exciting and highly motivated individual who can inspire others to believe in themselves. The vibrant torch in me has dimmed out which many of my students can see inside out. I only come to realize that the eyes are really the mirror of the soul that many was able to peek into. An emotional rollercoaster many had gone to say and I would wake up from one day…

How do you end this article? With hope? With prayers? I don't know…One day I may find my answer.