After the vision I had I started to see signs in things, now this got very weird and strange, by the time I started secondary school, I remember one morning walking to school and looking at the floor in the street and noticed twigs from trees making crucifix shapes, every where I looked at the ground I kept seeing sticks and twigs that where made in to cross shapes, I asked my friends and they saw them as well, but never really made fuss about it. I suppose it was because I was seeing other signs as well as the crosses. I especially noticed the change in the seasons more than anything else, during my younger years, I remember the sky being very blue one morning like azure and the fluffy white clouds, now I had not seen this type of sky before, and it was very inviting to look at, as I nearly lost my step looking up at it, I felt a very strange kind of emotion that I had not felt before, all these news images and feelings where rushing into me, filling me with excitement and pleasure, I got a rush of ecstasy seeing the morning sun and the deep blue sky that I had never seen before, not like this. Funny how the early morning dawn can make you feel like that. Growing up was not easy with this affliction or illness I had, I started to see hidden messages in the bible, revelation, and seeing more shadows and dim lights like orbs of white and amber glowing on my bedroom walls and moving slowly across then going up out of the ceiling. my girlfriend also saw these lights, what she saw was two dimly lit amber orbs strait across from us on the wall, moving very slowly up out of the roof of the bedroom ceiling, it was really weird because there was nothing illuminating the room at that time no lights or any other source of light coming in to the room, or from outside, we could not make any sense from this at all, we were both amazed and talked about it for weeks to our friends and family. By the time I got to about thirty I was settling down and trying to get on with my life, as I had some bad times with relationships with girlfriends not working out,
And heart breaks I had to get over, not very pleasant as you know, I never really got over my first love, and the second was just as bad, as I gave her everything like all my love and soul, I worshipped her, then the third nearly killed me off, as I loved her very very much, she took it all, that was the last love of my life, she was the one imp talking about now who saw the orbs and shadows in our house, it really scared her some days. She said she was pushed while hanging a coat up at the bottom of the stairs that fell off on its own, she felt a heavy hand on her back and she was shuffled forward very hard to the wall, it really spooked her that bad she ran out side and waited for me to come home. She was alone in the house at the time. we moved out soon after and fell apart because I was having a breakdown trying to cope with all this, as well as having to look after my mother and father who where very ill at the time, and needed much care, I was the only one running around for them both as they lived separately, my parents. Things where going very bad for me then, I lost my job as a taxi driver because I assaulted some one who needed a good hiding for the things they did to me, while I was with my girlfriend, he slept with her.
Knowing full well I was away working nights, I got four months in prison for hitting him with my hands. He got one black eye and bruised ribs and the rest of his days with my girlfriend. While she threw me out into the streets with no where to go at night. The next day I was arrested by the police for assault.
I think this was a blessing in disguise because I was asking and praying to God for help, while my troubles where brewing at that house with her. I used to read the bible most nights when I was not working, and one particularly night I was reading revelation where it say in the chapter, “and you shall spend a short time in prison for your troubles because of me” this was referring to one of jesses decuples I think, but anyway I was getting hidden messages as well about me meeting or seeing God in prison, it said in the hidden message I used from anagrams in revelation, that “I would see god or the name of god in a windy town where the windmills are in the north by the sea”. I was really puzzled by this message and thought nothing of it, although I did write it down and showed my brother and my mother what was said. They both laughed and scoffed at me and said I was not going to prison. And I would never meet God, because no man can see god they said. With out dying. But I know there are more ways than one to skin a cat, if God said that in the bible maybe he meant something else like he usually does, maybe we cannot see him and live in his own image, but god says he moves in mysterious ways, and one image he moved in to will amaze you when I tell you in a moment.
