When people want to make a mark in life they are often contradictory but they need to make a mark in life. One chap couldn't understand why a rebel would be dating a demure, educated person. Opposites attract we all know as one way of thought can complement another. But the youth obviously thought how reactionary is the rebel if he is associating himself with a more reserved person. That person could also say he has his own religion, call it by its initial "D" and would invent words.
I could think of how early religions were influenced by pagan rites and symbols. Was the boy unhappy with the spirituality that he inherited or he just needed to find his own identity and establishing his own spirituality meant that? The boy was trying to meet a girl and the same time referred to his sense of delusion in existing institutions and values. It appeared that he threw out notions to her to try and find out where her spirituality lay. There were no projected thoughts to the tune of him suspecting that she was discontent and perhaps he was just using her as a sounding board.
I found that he was looking for different spiritual paths taking a Tibetan class one day of the week and then observing the Sabbath one the next. I was reminded how Cat Stevens became a Buddhist in his prime as a male vocal and would he be content to do the same if he had the opportunity to change his faith.
It occurred to me he might be trying to impress his female admirer with his fertile, imaginative mind, the fact that he was open to several spiritual paths and not one. Perhaps then he was only after illustrating the many ways he could determine his own future without undo influences. He admitted trying to deconstruct spirituality so as to understand its reason for being but he wondered why he was trying so hard. He would rather ask someone else for the knowledge so as to avoid having to consider how much of his thought was objective.
His background was fundamentalist he stated, and he had difficulty coming to terms with the use of certain established religious concepts. Then he would refer to Kant, the father of logic to say that if you have to rely on who will succeed between the individual and the world, bank on the individual.
So it appeared that the young man wanted to appear as an independent thinker, not being influenced by current religions and go about his quest for the truth by asking rather accepting any existing reality for face value. In the end who knows how the girl felt about the guy.
My feeling is that when a guy opens up this way naturally he leaves himself open to many counterarguments as to why he can't accept the world the way it is, instead of trying to create a separate spirituality for himself. Apparently he was looking for someone who would question the status quo as he was.
