Why didn't my mother teach me what I was worth? That God said I was a princess and worth something. Instead she never showed me what standards morals and values were. She allowed me to be abused by the world and her boy friends. Why after years of beating me my dad walked away and Dis owned me.
Why my mother didn't think that she was worth very much? Why did I have to see all the men growing up coming in and out of her bedroom? Why did I have to see men hit and abuse her? And because of this growing up I thought that this was ok. Why didn't my mother teach me how to get out and work for money? Teach me how to support a family instead she showed me how to fill out an application for welfare and wait for the first of the month.
Why come she wasn't there to raise us as kids instead of chasing every man she met? Why did I have to learn how to take care of my younger brothers and sisters stuck at home all the time with no childhood until the day at an early age I decided I wanted my own baby? Why come she didn't see her boy friends getting up in the middle of the night coming into my bedroom sleeping with me at an early age? Why did they tell me that they loved me and left me with the delusion that sex was love?
Why my mother didn't no when she dropped me off at auntie house that my uncle was raping me? Why come every one that said they loved me mentally, psychically and sexually abuse me? Why was I left feeling empty with the thoughts that I've never been loved? Why come all the people in my life that was suppose to protect me and love me hurt me?
Why have I been chasing love my whole life looking and wanting someone to hold and love me? Why have I been in a repeat cycle of hurt, pain and abuse letting different men in my life just to feel loved? Why didn't my mother ever asked herself why I would try to end my life over and over again? Why did I end up with the same amount of kids my mother had? Why did I repeat the same welfare cycle the same types of no good men the same failures and mistakes my mother made?
Why Come My Mother Never Showed Me My Worth?
