No denying that mental pictures are the minds way of simply storing old memories and new ones only to find their way into our thought file processes. It is with our heart that we chose to make decisions of sacrifices over what we think is best. It is the heart that takes the beating over time. In the process it can become calloused and cold or it can learn to become pliable and vulnerable to others that may try to enter into your life.
I wonder where you might see yourself. I wonder where you might see me, where I am.
To answer my own questions…I am seeing that one may still have a part of my heart in his hands, not even realizing it. If this person is not certain what to do with it, then I say give it back, so it will have time to heal. Have you tried dating and it never seems to pan out? Have you tried letting go of the past only to find it is right there at your doorstep? I wonder…what will you do with your thoughts, your emotions and your true feelings? Will you ever let those walls come down to try again at true love, knowing it is out there just waiting on your move? I always get the question…"what does he have that I don't? And I always reply, my heart." You know you may have experienced something so deep and uncommon place with one certain one that it is a common thing to think they still have a piece of your heart and you just want it back so you can at least feel whole again.
How long does this process take? Who really knows? For some I have encountered in recent weeks, it took them anywhere from a week, a month, a year and some even two, yet there are those who never learned and may still be alone to this day. Sad really how the heart can play these games and mess with your mind. Sometimes I think you just have to take your heart back…maybe even get mad in the healing process, I don't really know. But I am honestly learning and each day I am happier and more like my old self, yet I am much better than I used to be and I expect to be as good as new soon. I smile more and I laugh more, to me that's a great sign of moving forward instead of backwards.
Okay I know this was a deep thing I am writing about, but if I don't write about what is real and what is fake who will?? I have had many write me about this since I first blogged it only to realize that it may have had some overtones that may have had an adverse reaction for some and I had to make some revisions this morning. I only write this not only for myself as it has helped me to see where I was and where I need to be but for many of my friends who have felt these same feelings and are doing better them selves. It's you who have encouraged me to get back out here to get my creative juices flowing and okay you asked for it! Again thanks to my many special friends who have helped mend this ole gal's wings and for those who are still standing in the gap for me. You are so loved and admired and more than that you are valued highly in my life and those you all continue to touch daily!
