Ok so why do relationships and people have to be so hard? I remember gowning up, love and people were real back then. There wasn't so much bs and games surrounding relationships like there is now. When you were with someone, you were with them and not everyone else. There wasn't so much of the "hey I like you one minute crap and then the next I don't". What does this accomplish besides messing with people's feelings and heart. Now a days the words I love you don't mean anything. People throw them around like water. I still stand by the fact that you shouldn't say it unless you truly feel it deep down. I just don't understand how people can justify telling someone they love them, then going out and sleeping with other people. That's not love!
Now I have been in a relationship for over a year and this is the second time we have been together so if you add both times together it's been something like 2 years and 3 months roughly. It is truly is a loveless relationship. He does not love me, he does not want to make anymore of a commitment then what we have. We don't even live together. So I am trying to understand why he is with me. Why do I stay? Is it out of comfort or the fear of being alone? I mean lets be real people I am not as young as I use to be. I think that as we get older we tend to scarfice happiness for comfort.
I honestly can not remember the last time I was in a relationship that was two-sided and real. People these days don't know how to be real and them true selves. I blame society a little because it's drilled into our heads that if you don't look or act a certain way and that if you don't have certain things then your not good enough. Now clearly it is mainly the persons fault for being the way they are. They are the ones that decide to lie, cheat and pretend they are something that aren't.
I never pictured myself to be in this type of relationship or even having to deal with the whole dating scene. I would not wish it on anyone. I have friends that are married always say things like your so lucky to be single (as in not married really), being free to do whatever and having no one to answer to.. Well news it's not fun and I'm not lucky. There are to many head trips and games now a days that being single or just dating is more of a headache than it's worth.
So I just want to know why it has to be this way? What ever happen to being in a relationship and being happy and truly loved? Is there such a thing now a days.
I think people are just to self-involved to really fall in love and to make the effort.
