It all started at the age of 2.
Her Mom and Dad got divorced, way too young for her young mind to remember anything that happened then. All she knew is, things were not the same. Where did her Daddy go? The months went by and she finally got the picture that her Daddy lived somewhere else. He would come and get her and take her places, they would go get ice cream, go to the zoo, go to his house even and play. She did have fun with her Daddy.
Then things for her changed again. There was someone else in her Daddy's life, she didn't know just what to think about this, for he was supposed to be with her Mommy. But then again, she gathered that was not going to take place either. Although she was still very young, and could not remember many things, she knew that things were not Right at all. Why is her Daddy with this woman? She treated her bad. She was as nice as could be to her when her Daddy was there, but when he went to work and she had to watch her, she turned real mean. She just could not understand.
Then that dreadful day came, her Daddy married this woman. She had turned four by then, she knew more of what was going on. She knew that when she was with her Dad and this other woman, and Dad was at work, this woman hurt her. She didn't say anything because she loved her Dad so much, she wanted him to be happy. Besides, she can still go home to her Mom.
It got to the point that she did not want to go and visit her Dad anymore, and her Mom could not understand why. "Just because" was her only reply. But she went anyway. Then one day they came to get her, and kept her. Her Dad had won custody of her. What happened over the next several years was nothing less than horrifying for her. The abuse never stopped, it just kept getting worse. And this time, she was threatened, if she told her Dad, she would get beat so bad she would die. That was enough for a girl of eight to keep her mouth shut, and go through what she had to on a daily basis all alone.
By the time she was nine, she was doing all the house work around the house, plus there was a new baby, and she had to help take care of her also. This was just too much for a child to handle. But she grew up very early, and did what she had to do. She missed her Mother dearly for she was not able to see her, or talk to her on the phone, she was allowed no contact with her at all. The only hope she had was when she babysat, she called her Mom collect and talked to her, or she would write letters and ask teachers to mail them out for her. She going through all of this in silence.
She could not wait for the day that she would finally be out of that house, away from that woman, away from the abuse. Away from the lies, away from being told she is no good, not good enough to be in that family, has no right to even live.
Finally that day came, she was able to leave, and she did, she left without saying goodbye. The worst feeling that she had was leaving her Dad without saying goodbye, but she had to do it, she had to get away. She was an adult now, and needed to be on her own, needed to make it on her own, needed to get her self worth back. But the past abuse kept gnawing at her, and haunting her. But she found away to get passed it. For now.
As the years went by, she found out that the abuse never did stop, it just went to another level, no longer could that woman beat her, but she could lie about her, and hurt her in anyway she felt fit to do so, and that she did. Every chance she got.
Then the unspeakable happened. That woman denied all the abuse that had gone on, she said that it never happened, that it was all in the mind, all in the head and that she was making things up. And to this day, that woman still denies the abuse...and the abuse goes on even worse in the head of that once innocent little girl.
Will the abuse ever stop?
