By the time I found my Guru, I was broken in body, mind and spirit from bad relationships and fake teachers. My soul barely participated in life and was desperately looking for a way out. Nothing was of any interest and I felt crippled and empty. Then a friend told me about a man whom she said had some spiritual insight.
I wrote him a letter and we made contact via email. I tracked him around cyber-space to learn a little more and visited his blogs. He seemed like an ordinary man, originating from Transylvania, interested in spirituality. I had no idea who he was, or what he looked like, but something stirred deeply in my soul.
One day he asked me to proofread a book he was writing called: “Successful Life with Perfect Prayer”. I had done this kind of thing on a voluntary basis when I lived in India for four years. Though by no means a professional, I accepted, feeling that even the small amount that I could offer would be of some help to him. Little did I know that this was actually the beginning of my own healing journey.
I am pleased to say that his book is now in print. It is about the power of the mind and the art of prayer - detailing the best way to pray by using the law of attraction …
Working on it, I found myself inspired and guided. The book showed me how to take control of my own destiny - life was no longer something that "happened" to me, now I was able see how I could create the reality I wanted. I began to understand that my own lack of self-love had drawn to me relationships in which I was not loved or valued. Everything began to make sense and I was keen to apply the teachings I had so studiously been editing.
Finally there was a light at the end of the tunnel, thanks to the wisdom that this man had shared and I looked forward to the time that I would be able to meet him.
Soon that day came and it was as though I had known him for a long time. I had taken the opportunity and canceled all my travel plans, organizing instead a two month holiday, as near as possible to where he lived, in order to facilitate learning more about spirituality. I intended to read, study, meditate in nature and generally focus my mind on better things in the ample free time I thought I would have.
He proposed to teach me martial arts exercises as a way to evolve spiritually and improve my karma. At first I was perplexed, but soon it became evident that every move I made revealed something of my attitude towards life, something of my karmic lessons, and something of my existential paralysis. There was little time now for lazy reflection - the training was intense.
Often I wondered who this guy really was. He seemed to know my thoughts and feelings, poke at every painful place in my heart so carefully concealed. He uncovered my soul's willful, even defiant reluctance to participate in life and I felt her fear and pain at having to face it.
Now I felt truly vulnerable - letting him see my imperfections held the risk of being disliked and rejected, this caused many shadows of the past to loom before me, but I need not have feared, for his love held me secure as he ground down my ego's defenses.
So it began; the task to make the mind release its strong protection over the heart. To coax the soul out to where she feared most to be and help her find her dignity and self respect; to show her how to protect herself; to teach her that she did not need to stand and offer the other cheek, but to gently step aside and give love in return; to introduce her to her shadow and befriend it.
The martial arts, his book, life, him, and I- they were all, though seemingly separate, strangely connected, like a chain of events perfectly set into motion.
After the extensive training I have come away a different person. I still feel like one who is walking in the woods rather than looking down from the mountain top with a clear view, but somehow the woods have meaning and there is direction. My mind continues to feels like a fish caught in a net, but now I know I can break free, thanks to the incredible love and dedication to truth this man holds and reveals through the secrets of martial arts, courses and his books.
