When we desire things from God, we can't decide how they should manifest. However, we must “plug in” daily by declaring who God is in our lives and why we need God. The lives we lead when we believe in God have a different reflection when we know why we need God.
The love, need and fear of the Lord makes us want to maintain our relationship with God because we truly appreciate his grace and protection of us. I've also learned that out of thanksgiving to God we are delighted to clean up our destructive behaviors and we are free from the bondage of guilt, shame or even addiction.
The “Nest” sowed seeds in me as well. We can't box in God's process for making us better servants for his glory and magnification. All sinful behavior can never cease at once, but if we commence to put it in regression -we begin to move higher in total healing. If we ignore sin or think addictions will just disappear be prepared because it won't- but it will metastasize like cancer.
I could sense that my presence made some people feel uncomfortable. Clients would make jokes of my being a spy. As a matter of fact, in my last counseling session my counselor stated teasingly “so now tell me are you really DEA, FBI, or CIA?” We both laughed. Nonetheless she knew the experience was priceless and unforgettable. As I have been educated, being saved and surrendering your life to God does not mean that we as human beings don't have evil thoughts or carnal desires. However living a carnal life only reflects our choice to please self rather than God.
I am truly thankful to every ministry that encouraged me to obey God's plan at hand. These ministries are among many who continue to go out in to the world as Jesus did to spread the good news of Gods everlasting love. “How beautiful are the feet of those who preach the gospel of peace, who bring glad tidings of good things!” (Romans 10:15)
Special thanks to Altar of Grace International, Perfecting Church, Shiloh Deliverance Church, True Love Evangelistic Ministries, The Urban Alternative, and Ever Increasing Word Ministries, Word of Faith International Christian Center, BVOV-KCM Ministries and After Christ Christian Center.
I have always fancied the “ What I Know For Sure” column in O Magazine, however it was not until my eyes, heart, soul and mind stretched forth from this life experience that I could boldly say- “I knew anything for sure.” Thus in view of that, “ what I now know for sure… is that believing in God is more than enough-even if you just want a new life. But you must unequivocally have the faith of a little tiny mustard seed.”
And that's a W.R.A.P (Women Recovering Addictions Program).
