I woke up early still exhausted from last nights chores. Said my prayers then headed straight for the kitchen to see what to whip up for breakfast. The food in place and all is now in order.
I check the clock and it is 7am so i washed up to go to and buy food at the near by market place. So eager to cook up something special for you and the children I did not even bother to ask if you can spare me some money to add to my budget. Immediately, when I got home by 8am, I started to wash the dishes; the youngest of our brood of five was awake so I decided to give her a bath while heating the breakfast on the table that was untouched. By 10am all the children were up ; It is still vacation from school and they are making so sure they are well rested before school starts. We ate our breakfast together and they helped me prepare for lunch. Oh, I am so proud of my children. By 11am YOU woke up.
You got up on the wrong side of the bed. Criticizing the way I cleaned the house and saying things that made me be -come frantic. I did not know what to do. I do not like it when you start shouting at me and the kids. Every minute you were calling the children and the orders were endless. You did not even notice the breakfast i prepared and now it's lunch. Is it too much to ask for appreciation? Prayers keep me going and my kids keep me sane. I love you but sometimes i don't know you anymore. Little things make you angry and it scares me. I had a nervous breakdown but you still screamed at me for not taking care of myself. Asleep from my medications; you woke me up just to ask if I knew where your keys were. You even argued with me because I was not feeling well for a week.
My only consolation is that you never had any vice. No smoking, drinking, no girls. You were always with us and even opted to have your own business to be by our side at all times.
This would have made so many wives happy... How come I'm not. How come I am feeling incomplete and fear over powers me when you are around. I am not a super woman and cannot be the perfect wife you want me to be. I make mistakes just like you do but I easily forgive you. Why can't you do the same to me. I never nag but YOU do. Am I asking for too much when I say give me peace and quiet around the house ? Or perhaps we have become too close for comfort...
