In high school and college I always vowed never to get breast implants because it was too superficial and only people with low self esteem would get it. However, after ten years of being consistently exposed to artificial breasts on television and around me, I am starting to have second thoughts. The thoughts that are running through my head are valid. It might be a “girl” thing, but I currently feel disgusting every time I put on a bra and there is a space to fill. I almost feel like my breasts did not fully develop thus, I do not feel like a “woman”. For whatever reason, I correlate being a woman to having full voluminous breasts. I have not done too much research into the different methods or materials to use to have implants, so I do not know how serious I am. I do know that I think about it at least ten times a day.
During the ten times a day of thinking, I go back and forth with if this is something I really need. Not to mention, how am I going to endure the pain. I wonder how the implants will affect my confidence and social acceptance. Will guys look or treat me differently? Will I be able to be more driven with my goals? Will I wake up every morning and enjoy looking at myself in the mirror? Will everyone think that I have low self esteem or mental issues that I got implants? I am pretty sure that having the implants will be a positive thing, but then there is a flip side. I get frustrated at myself that why I can’t accept myself for whom I am. Why people are obsessed with trying to fix every single flaw that they are born with. Why is society putting so much social pressure on me and people to be perfect? It bothers me that even though you can fix something aesthetically to make it better does it make it right?
